Needing to make things Right

From a young age, I was tasked with the responsibility to go make things right.
Make things right with a parent, a babysitter, with friends, to make things right in general. I took this message, this burden into adulthood and when I try to make things right and they don’t turn out well, I blame and shame myself. Look at you trying to make it right only to do this wrong.

I was critical toward that part of me that was trying so hard to do it right and feeling guilt if it turned out otherwise. So I’m going back to that little girl and telling her, It’s not your job to make things right or to make adults comfortable when young. It’s not wrong for you to ask questions, or be curious, or fumble your way through. The world isn’t right or wrong. It’s made up of the beautiful middle. All is learning. I’m reassuring this part that believes she had to be responsible to make all the things right all of the time: Permission to just be a kid. To let the adults be adults. To be human.

BJP